Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Uh oh.

Disaster struck. Must withstand this. Must not fall...

WWJD?

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Anime: End of winter season and more stuff

Besides the weather, anime also lets me know when a season ends. This season has been ok at best. Gundam 00 and Clannad ~Afterstory~ span from previous seasons so they don't really count, plus they are guaranteed to be good anyway. I have watched White Album, Asu no Yoichi, Rideback, To Are Majutsu no Index and Akikan. Only Rideback is good and White Album barely made it. The rest are just plain terrible. To be fair, White Album is okay until I started watching Kanon. Yoichi and Index started off well and then they just sucked their way towards the final episode. Akikan...just ugh --*. The summer season is usually crap as I don't think I watched/followed any anime during the past two summers. I am going to be taking three part time courses starting May - August, so I guess not being sucked in by anime will ony help me.

I still have not made a firm decision in whether to get an apartment or not. I want to finish ACF first before I do this. It will be a reward for myself I guess? It's also risky now consider how I feel about myself at work. I really feel that I can be let go any minute since I am not being constantly updated by my co-workers. I am going to do everything in my power to make sure I stay until the new office move. I think I will be fine unless I screwed something up badly *knocks on wood*. I will have to suck it in since my sister is canned by her employer as well. Besides work, got to worry about school as well. Final exams in three weeks! 頑張ってください!

Friday, March 27, 2009

End of Kanon

I finished watching Kanon.

No doubt that it has become one of my all-time favourites. I still cannot believe I missed it back in 06-07. STILL. I would say it's comparable even to Clannad (don't think anything can touch it right now thou), KGNE, Haruhi and Byousoku. It just sucks that there is no sequel after it like After Story.

My favourite character has to be Ayu. I don't think there is a doubt. I do have to admit that she looks better when she was young with the long hair and the ribbon hairband though. Being nit-picky, yes. Second favourite is Makoto, her "Auu~" is just too cute and I just feel bad that she only lasted 10 episodes. Third is very close, but I have to give it to Nayuki. Her sleeping style is just too win with "Nyuu~. Shiori is very close behind, though I don't even know what I exactly like in her. Maybe it is the way she talks and how she is always calm except for the last episode. Last is Mai...I think her personality is even worst than Yuki. And it doesn't help that I don't really like her arc. Heck I like Sayuri better than Mai to be honest. Sayuri's "Ahaha~" alone beats Mai by a mile --*

Next, another Kyoto product: AIR.

Can't wait for the last episode of G00 tomorrow as well!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Kanon

I have been addicted to Kanon lately. It's an EXCELLENT anime. I think in some ways it's better than Clannad, but overall Clannad is still better by a little bit right now. But I guess it doesn't help that I am watching future episodes in advance orz

So I am up to episode 10. I really like Makoto. For the five heroines I actually rate her behind Ayu (my #1). It's a pity that she has to go so early. I would rather they show Mai's story first than have Makoto gone. Her "Auu~" is just too cute (thou "Uguu~" still wins by a little). Episodes 8, 9 and 10 are all very touching. And yes I actually cried.

I like this anime because of the cute girls (obviously), but also because of some of its themes like "sadness" and "奇跡". I am always a sucker for sadness for some reason. I guess because it makes me cry, and I love to cry sometimes. I wanted to cry alot of times but I just can't because of the situation I am in like work, school, or just can't. The other thing is, even if it's an anime about sadness, I am pretty sure it will have a good ending and that's what cheers me up. Even though Makoto is gone, she is not forgotten and got all her wishes granted before she left. With all the kitsune flashes throughout, I am pretty sure that she went back to being a fox again instead of dying. Which leads me to 奇跡. That's something I always believe in, even though they rarely happen in real life. "As long as I did my best, the outcome won't be too bad." Is that part of a 奇跡? However, I do believe it comes with a price sometimes...no one gets a free lunch after all. I don't even know what I am talking about anymore...but that's sort of my grasp on the term. After all, my car's license plate is exactly that =)

I am going to have to make a BIG decision soon. Should I move out or stay? I really need to think clearly before committing myself. It's my dream to have my own condo after all, but I still think this is too fast...if I can finish my diploma this summer...

Will write more as more thoughts come along...

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Damn it.

Well so much about saving money. Just spent $800 saving my car.

So much about saving the money that I earned on the iPhone. But I guess it has to be done. Though to be honest I can't really tell the difference on the brakes. I probably can tell once I drive on the 407 on Monday. But damn, $800 is a big amount. I thought it will be 4-500, not $800. Oh well since I am planning to keep the car this has to be done. It will be my winter car once I get a new sportscar. Hate it, but must be done. So $550 for the iphone, $135 from dumbbells, and $100 from work. I guess that ALMOST makes up for it. Sigh.

I think anything I say about my car, I will be cursed for it. I have TO STOP SAYING THINGS about it. Yes I am blaming myself for sending that email to my mom. But I guess my brake disks just won't rust 75% of itself in a couple of days. I really need to control myself else I know something bad might happen again. Yes I believe I am too 迷信 and naive but that's how I am. It's better to believe that it exists rather than not. I hit the "wrong jackpot" 2-3 times so yeah I need to be really careful.

...and speaking of my mom, I think she has been CRAZY since she came back, CORRECTION, she has been crazy since coming back. I really need to get out. I really do.

Finally weekend...

...and more stuff happens!

- I don't know how I did on the test. I either raped it or got raped badly. Hopefully I raped it orz

- Assignment due for MGT next Thursday. It's funny how everyone in class seems to be 85%+ finished while I haven't even started (busy checking prof's answers). Well I have only went to 5 classes so far: First class, 2 classes before tests, 2 classes for the actual test. It's amazing that I even remember what they are. I doubt I will be able to attend 10 classes before the semester ends. Well same thing with FIN. I haven't attend a full class still besides the test. Hmmm, I think my laziness has reach a new level. It doesn't help that I HATE these two courses.

- I can't believe I missed Kanon back in 2007. I watched Haruhi but I missed Kanon?! WOW. Now I am getting sucked in by "Uguu~" even though I only watched the first ep --* And Ayu rules. "Uguu~" Now I am going to say that whenever I can! "uguu...uguu...UGUU!" At least this gives me something to look forward after Clannad. And after Kanon I am going to watch AIR...if I am able to download them that is. That anime is from 04 after all...orz

- Opened my Borderless Plan at TD. After I get my Infinite Visa, going to apply for my USD Visa. After that...should be complete. Maybe some USD cheques but they will probably be sitting there collecting dust. I actually need to find something to put in my safety deposit box. Can't really think of anything to put in there yet...

- Going to condo-hunt on Sunday. I wonder how it will go...hopefully it won't be too bad. I am really looking forward to it though to be honest. Living by myself with my own cat...okay got to stop dreaming --*

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Some more stuff happened.

- Sold my 8 gb iphone. It's a good phone, but I just can't stand the crippled bluetooth, no keypad, touchscreen without stylus and the fingerprint magent side of it. Ended up I got $550 for it. WOW. That's much more than I expected. Basically paid for ~18 months of my agreement assuming I don't go over the usual amounts every month...NICE!

- Closed that joint account (yay!), converted my TD Green Visa to the Infinite Visa (yay^2 but it still needs to get here), got my safety deposit box (yay^3!)...now need to get the USD part up and running along with the TD USD Visa! I don't know why I am so excited~ xD

- 20% exam tomorrow (BOO!)...I am so dead although I think I am ready. I did study after all --*

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Stuff happened...

So let's see what happened this past week or so:

- Changed plans on Fido, signed a 3 year agreement, got an iphone (!!)

Since she left, I barely used my phone for calls and text (used to be a monster sms'er). I was paying $25 for F2F, $9 for voicemail/call display, $6.95 for SAF, $0.50 for 911 and with taxes it comes to ~$47. For the past few months I have been talking less than 80 minutes a month so for $47 it's way too much. So I was thinking of getting prepaid but instead, I was tempt to get a retention plan which is $28.25 including tax with 250 daytime min, F2F, voicemail/call display, 2500 text and evenings/weekends starting at 5 pm. Well it's pretty good although I don't think I would use 10% of the daytime minutes in a month anyway. But the bad thing is I have to sign an agreement which I NEVER WANT TO DO. But the thing is I have already been with Fido for 5 years without an agreement. So unless something dramatic happens (like getting a job in Japan...), I doubt I will be leaving Canada for the next few years (sadly...but let's be realistic). Still need to get my designation so why not. And yes, I got the iphone since it is the best phone that Fido can offer (alot of people know I am ANTI-APPLE), I have enough Fido dollars to cover almost the entire cost, and I am planning to resell it anyway. Almost $20 saving per month, a chance to finally used up my Fido dollars and a chance to get $400 if I do decide to sell the iphone is just too tempting. Hope it is the right choice...

- Opened a TD Select Service account

Been wanting to do that for a LONG time. Free safety deposit box, free cheques/free atm/free statements (heck I get them free from PCF/Citizens anyway =p), free Visa ($100 annual fee), free USD account, free USD Visa. Yes it requires a $5000 balance every month, but since the $5000 won't net me too much interest now (rates been dropping like hell), why not just use it where I want to use it for a long time? The combined service mentioned above will get me better value than the interest. Heck even the free Visa alone almost breaks me even. It helps that my home branch is located beside where I work xD So yeah why not...the only bad thing is the $200 weekly release limit. Compare to the $5000 I get from PCF and $2500 from Citizens? It's like nothing. If interest rates go back up and/or I need the $5000 then I guess I will have to cancel. But for now, need to convert my TD Green Visa (vintage 03 and my oldest CC, who would have thought?!) to an annual fee Visa, close the account that was originally there (ouch) and secure my deposit box in order to utilize my 5k fully.

- Last episode of Clannad aired

Gundam 00 came close, but I have to say Clannad is my favourite anime for the past 2 years. Seeing two people from being complete strangers to getting married is just too...good. I bet everyone wants that to happen to them as well. Seeing the characters grow up from mere high school students to members of society...I feel like I have been with them in person for the past two years. I will miss this. Hopefully Haruhi Season 2 FINALLY comes out and soothe my pain xD

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Wow...

To be honest, today is a pretty bad day. I keep thinking about how I will get the iphone after work, and that somehow pushed me through the day.

I think I really need a break. I am going to explode to her soon. ANY MOMENT actually. I can't believe someone so nice can actually be so nasty. A mirror of myself I guess (though I am not as nice). Wanted to rest tomorrow but I need to process a wire transfer and have to go to school. Maybe on Friday but I would need to print cheques that day. Sigh. On to something better...

The iphone is actually okay, thou I think I need a BT keyboard and a stylus. Typing on the thing is bother line impossible. I guess I am tech-starved and maybe that's why I am able to stand it for now.

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Another miserable week coming up...

So finance-exam week is gone FINALLY, and with that come another miserable week.

My sister will be going to HK = good. However, my mother will also be going = not so good.

I don't even want to talk about yesterday...but with this sentence I am pretty sure I will remember what happened. That will be good enough for me.

Have I tried too hard? Do I deserve some kind of rest? Am I at my limit? Will I break down soon? Will anyone even notice? Even if they notice, will they even bother?!

I don't even know anymore...

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Another day...another miserable day.

To be fair, it wasn't that miserable. It wasn't miserable at all actually (except what happened to my car when I am done work for the day). It's my thoughts that made the day miserable.

First things first, I decided to change the layout. Looks much better than what I have previously, at least that's what I like to think...

Anyway, so I met that fat bitch that I was forced to work with when I was back in my first coop workterm. It was a horrible feeling to say the least. I don't know why but...she is in Deloitte working as an auditor and I work as a accounting/finance clerk in a mid-size international company and she is auditing the company. I mean...EPIC FAIL? I hope she doesn't recongize me, but I am pretty sure she does. Let's just hope the audit will be over soon. This is going to be a tough month...

Another exam coming up in 2 weeks...

Monday, March 2, 2009

Oh no...

I am so dead for tomorrow's midterm. SO DEAD.

OMG! Another post!

...like who cares.

I think I have reached the deadend.

My mid-term is tomorrow, and I don't think I even paid any attention to it. Yes I hate finance...but I don't think I can study anymore for anything I don't like. Hopefully I will get a B...well still have tomorrow to try. We will see.

So back to this deadend talk. I want my own condo. Not enough money. Not stable enough job. I want a new car. But I want my own condo! I want to live out. But I will have to pay rent and I want my own condo! I want a new job. How are you going to find one with the current economy? I don't want to go to school anymore. Hmmm, 4 more courses to go = 8 more months. I want a new gf. Ummmm...yeah good luck. I don't like things way are now. Tough luck! See where I am getting? I don't know what I am going to do anymore...I really don't. Yes miracles do happen, like when you win the lottery. I hope for them but I don't count on them. So yeah...I don't know. At the very least I got to finish my diploma before planning my next move. So at least 8 more months of what I mentioned above before things get better. Unless something happens. Something good I hope.

I understand though, I think this is bad but it could be worst. I can be fired and be a NEET, and I will say everyday that I want a job. I just hope things don't go bad in the next 8 months. Though I have a bad feeling that something will happen to me at work...it's obvious why anyway. I lost the motivation to work there because of her. I have that feeling that it's better if she left the company and I am right. And I still don't know what happened that caused the downfall. That's the kicker. Just 5-6 more months before the month, and hopefully I can last until then. The new seating arrangements will probably help. PROBABLY and no I am not counting on it. We will probably have to be together anyways but with all the other people in accounting (like 3 more people?!). Which is better...I guess until they hate me. And yes I know they will. Somehow. Someday. I am so good at getting people to hate me that I am surprised. Instead of having an ability to get girls to like me I get people to hate me. What more can I say? *proud?*

God, please help me get through this. I will do my best as well. WWJD?

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Been a while.

Hello, it's been a while since I last posted. 2009 has not been smooth as expected...well actually it's worst than I thought...