I wonder what I have become...

...I really do.

But to be honest. I don't think I changed much. I am still the same person just without her. It's almost a year since she left, she left late August I believe? It's almost time for her to come back actually. I wonder if she is actually coming back. If she does, will she give me a visit? Call? Come over? I doubt it...to be honest I don't want to. Or do I? I don't know myself to be honest. I doubt it's going to happen so scratch it off the list. Do I miss her? I will be lying if I say I don't, but to be honest I won't if I have a gf now.

I am tired, want to go take a nap, but...never mind. I wonder wtf is going through my mind.