I wonder what I have become...

...I really do.

But to be honest. I don't think I changed much. I am still the same person just without her. It's almost a year since she left, she left late August I believe? It's almost time for her to come back actually. I wonder if she is actually coming back. If she does, will she give me a visit? Call? Come over? I doubt it...to be honest I don't want to. Or do I? I don't know myself to be honest. I doubt it's going to happen so scratch it off the list. Do I miss her? I will be lying if I say I don't, but to be honest I won't if I have a gf now.

I am tired, want to go take a nap, but...never mind. I wonder wtf is going through my mind.

Another can't sleep post...

I hate not being able to sleep. I love sleeping. --*

Nothing really on my mind right now so I guess I will leave it at then.

Oyasuminasai!

Bored, bored, BORED.

So I am done my test, at home, tired but don't want to sleep, and have nothing to do. I should just go to sleep. Sigh.

Owned!

...well I knew she wasn't single somehow.

Now I know it for sure.

No time to think that over, advance accounting exam tomorrow.

So much about studying...

...done absoluely none today.

I will study tomorrow night thou. I have to. I will at least do the exercises since there aren't many. 3 nights and 1 day should be enough. I hope.

この先に、なにがあるの？

So what's next?

Test on Friday, test on the thursday after, feeling the pinch again...Friday it's accounting and I must do well, I need to get a B at the least if I want to be fine before the exam. Good thing the exam is only 40%. I will be studying hard tomorrow, yakusoku suru!

Aitsu...I don't know if I have a chance. But I really think I should get the acc test over first before thinking too much. Getting a two month rental, or even having a long-d relationship is not a good risk compairing to wasting four months to retake a course AND delay my graduation. THAT CANNOT HAPPEN. THAT WILL NOT HAPPEN. I CANNOT AND WILL NOT LET THAT HAPPEN.

Well more about her, I don't even know if she is single even though my guess is yes. Going to a mall with her brother and mother on a Friday?! Thou of course it is possible that she has one, and that he is in HK, Waterloo, USA, UK or wherever...let's just hope I have a chance. That's all I am looking for right now...WWJD?

Wow!

NOT A BAD DAY! FINALLY!

Got 85% on my audit midterm which is much better than I expected, and then I got another 5% raise because the prof marked a 10 mark question out of 5 for everyone...and that question is probably the easiest question in the ENTIRE test.

And the highlight is going to lunch with Janet. WOW! WOW! I can't believe it still...let's hope I can build on it and maybe something good will happen. Thank you God. Thank you...

WWJD?